Only For A Season
Sometimes when Levi falls asleep during the day I find myself racing around trying to get to all the things that I “really” want to do. I hurriedly take care of other things I’m responsible for as if I’m being held hostage by his routine.
Today Levi and I went to visit my sister and then dropped her off at the airport. On the drive there, Levi fell asleep. When I parked my car, walked around to his side, and peaked through the window in on him it hit me. I saw his sweet little resting face and realized that I only get to enjoy him at this age and this stage once. I only get to see him laugh with two little teeth just peeking through his bottom gums once. I only get to make him laugh with silly dances and funny noises once. Before I know it, this season will be gone. My days will no longer be segmented by naps. Until eventually his schedule won’t be a part of my rhythm at all.
I don’t want to look forward to the next time Levi sleeps so I can get back to what I really want to do that day. I have the rest of my life to live for me. I want to look forward to next time he wakes up. So I can enjoy him. Laugh with him. Engage in life with him. Take in how he interacts with the world. And cherish the Levi I have right now, today.