Only For A Season

I saw his sweet little resting face and realized that I only get to enjoy him at this age and this stage once.

Sometimes when Levi falls asleep during the day I find myself racing around trying to get to all the things that I “really” want to do.  I hurriedly take care of other things I’m responsible for as if I’m being held hostage by his routine. 

I only get to enjoy him at this age and this stage once

Today Levi and I went to visit my sister and then dropped her off at the airport.  On the drive there, Levi fell asleep.  When I parked my car, walked around to his side, and peaked through the window in on him it hit me.  I saw his sweet little resting face and realized that I only get to enjoy him at this age and this stage once.  I only get to see him laugh with two little teeth just peeking through his bottom gums once.  I only get to make him laugh with silly dances and funny noises once.  Before I know it, this season will be gone. My days will no longer be segmented by naps.  Until eventually his schedule won’t be a part of my rhythm at all.  

I don’t want to look forward to the next time Levi sleeps so I can get back to what I really want to do that day.  I have the rest of my life to live for me.  I want to look forward to next time he wakes up.  So I can enjoy him.  Laugh with him.  Engage in life with him.  Take in how he interacts with the world.  And cherish the Levi I have right now, today.