Something Has to Change
There’s something about being responsible for the beginning of a new life that makes you reflect deeper than you ever have before. You start thinking about how you’re living. Why you do the things you do. What you want to convey about what really matters. Because you know a new little person is asking these questions before he can talk and forming his answers without your words.
It’s different than the reflection that happens when you leave home and venture to college. That’s more about freedom and it’s more about you. It’s different than the reflection that happens when you get married and you’re starting life anew together. That’s more about you plural. This kind of new beginning is different. It’s deeper because your child is looking to you to shape everything about their initial perspective of this world.
Katie says, “I understand now that I’m good enough.” Notice, her hair didn’t miraculously come back and her circumstances didn’t change. But you see her joy and her children growing in her new-found freedom because her perspective changed. She was no longer trying to hide behind an image that wasn’t really her.
I see the same growth taking seed in us as we experience the first pass of this with our son, Levi. His life is bringing about change in ours. It’s helping me learn that the quality of my day shouldn’t be measured by the amount of things I accomplish. After all, relationships aren’t accomplished. I’m learning that an important sounding job title is a poor thing to exchange for the all day moments of helping a little child grow up. For my husband, our son Levi has been a Catalyst to stop pursuing work just for work sake, but to work for something that really matters. Bob Goff summarized this perfectly in his book Love Does,
"I used to be afraid of failing at something that really mattered to me, but now I’m more afraid of succeeding at things that don’t matter."
What about you? Does something have to change?